These 2 little booklets will be my new best friends for the foreseeable future. On Tuesday I was working late and suddenly I decided that I’d go join Weight Watchers again. I was planning on just doing my own thing without paying Weight Watchers for the pleasure of my membership but then I thought “screw it” and went for it. I do much better when I’m paying for something and have to weigh myself in front of someone. ;)

I was shocked when I saw the woman write down my weight… 347lbs. This is my Weight Watchers unicorn, either this number pops up on the scale when I re-join or this is the number I can’t get past before I quit. I’d love to say not this time but it’s almost proven that when I say something like this, I do not live up to my end of the bargain. I can’t believe I just put my current weight out there… I hope it doesn’t come back to haunt me.

For most of the last 6 years, I’ve ignored my weight and the health issues I have now as a result. Right now I feel inspired and motivated when last month I didn’t and I’m not sure why that is. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to spend another summer without wearing tank tops, shorts and maxi dresses in public, I’m not sure. I just know that now I’m trying to be more self aware and make the right choices, fight with my will power to not give in so easily and eat to make myself feel better at the end of the day.