As the Scale Turns

Oh what a crazy week I have had. I moved into a new apartment this weekend and since then, I have done nothing but run around to buy this and that for the new place. In that chaos, I completely forgot to update you about my weigh in… it did not go the way I wanted it to but the end result was positive.

I set foot on the scale and weighed in for a 2lb. loss. I usually do really well my 1st week back on program so I expected maybe a 5lb. or 7lb. loss that week. I tried not to be mad at myself though. All in all, I think I did really well even though I wished it was a bigger loss. I spent some time in the pool and ate more vegetables than I have in a very long time.

The 1st week’s loss may not be stellar but the week after that can be a good one. That has happened to me a few times, my good behavior catches up with me eventually. Had I weighed in yesterday, I think I would have had some good news to report but with all the craziness, completely spaced on my weigh in. I’m going to go weigh in on Saturday instead, maybe make that my day instead of Tuesday. I’ll let you know what the scale says then.

These 2 little booklets will be my new best friends for the foreseeable future. On Tuesday I was working late and suddenly I decided that I’d go join Weight Watchers again. I was planning on just doing my own thing without paying Weight Watchers for the pleasure of my membership but then I thought “screw it” and went for it. I do much better when I’m paying for something and have to weigh myself in front of someone.

I was shocked when I saw the woman write down my weight… 347lbs. This is my Weight Watchers unicorn, either this number pops up on the scale when I re-join or this is the number I can’t get past before I quit. I’d love to say not this time but it’s almost proven that when I say something like this, I do not live up to my end of the bargain. I can’t believe I just put my current weight out there… I hope it doesn’t come back to haunt me.

For most of the last 6 years, I’ve ignored my weight and the health issues I have now as a result. Right now I feel inspired and motivated when last month I didn’t and I’m not sure why that is. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to spend another summer without wearing tank tops, shorts and maxi dresses in public, I’m not sure. I just know that now I’m trying to be more self aware and make the right choices, fight with my will power to not give in so easily and eat to make myself feel better at the end of the day.